From about year ten onwards, I knew that I wanted to work in video production. I had always been fascinated by television and movies. I remember watching the movie about the boy who was a wizard when I was really young, maybe seven years old, and I thought that every time we turned on the movie, the actors had to get into character and play out the entire movie live. I’m not sure when I realised this wasn’t the case, but I believed it for a long time.
Anyway, my fascination with film and TV made me want to pursue a career with a video production company operating in Melbourne. That was always my goal and I was certain all throughout university and high school, that I’d reach my goal. But now, five years on from university, I still haven’t reached my goal. I’m a qualified video editor, scriptwriter and camera operator and yet I am unable to get a job. Literally nowhere will hire me and I can’t figure out why.
I don’t think people understand just how upsetting it is not have a job in their chosen field. Pretty much everyone I went to university with has found a job and I can tell that they look down on me for not having on yet. I can tell that deep down they’re wondering what is wrong with me, because deep down, I’m wondering the same thing. It’s really hard feeling like I’m not good enough. It’s really brought me down.
I just want to be working in post production services already. Is that too much to ask? I think if I don’t get a job in the next year, I’m going to have to give up on my dream. The further out of university that I get, the harder it will be for me to get hired. I know this, potential employers know this. It’s the elephant in the room and the major sign that my future is on the brink of collapse.