How do I always manage to fall behind? I’m behind in everything and I always have been. I started primary school a year later than the rest of the kids born in my year. I didn’t have my first boyfriend until I was in my mid-twenties. I am only just starting my first year of university at thirty and I am so far off buying a house that I may as well not even bother.
It’s hard for me not to feel down and compare myself to other people my age who are already married, with children and in their second homes. One of my best friends has just sold her investment property (imagine!) and has used the equity to purchase her family home with her husband! They’re getting an ensuite renovation as we speak. I don’t even have an ensuite to renovate, let alone be allowed to renovate. My landlord would throw me out. I just wish that I could be as far advanced as everyone else. The whole thing is really getting me down.
I guess I need to listen to my therapist and try not to compare myself to others. It’s easier said than done, especially when my best friend continues to talk about how she’s chosen the best bathroom designers local to Melbourne to renovate her bathroom. We can’t all be like you, Sally! Sorry. This is what I’m trying to avoid. I need to be happy for my friend and support her success. Otherwise, I’m not being a very good friend.
Part of me feels like Sally is trying to brag about her life, even if just in a small way, but I really should support her and her successes. This is a me problem and jealousy isn’t going to get me to my goals any quicker. I need to put my head down and my bum up and work on the life I want.